i cannot believe this happened today. i have tried to stick to a timetable from day 1. and yet i forgot to post today (yesterday). not lazy. not busy. just forgot. i feel strangely guilty. am i giving myself a hard time? i knew it will get more difficult with change in schedule. but the guilt is strangely stronger than reason. i might have to post again today just to keep with the promise i made myself. to be fair, i am only a couple hours late. so, even though it counts, i am not letting this sway my motivation. i have to keep going. i need this. i need to make sure i do this right.